It has been a trying couple of weeks. My mother had surgery this two weeks ago for suspected RCC, which is kidney cancer. Surprisingly, that was not the terrifying part. The part where she lost over a liter of blood and needed a transfusion as we nearly lost her was the scary part. I think I hit my darkest moment sitting in that hospital with her. I stayed up all night, watching her, wondering if she would pull through. Knowing I would be lost without her. Somehow hold